she's back...

I

Don't know what to expect from this. Maybe.. naively I thought she'd find Him. I kind of thought that's why we hadn't seen her for so long. 

I think I'm... Happy to see her still. A lot of the critters she knew- they're not all around anymore. _{And the ones that are .} Well.  I hope she will make lots of new friends. Dharasi's Shrine being open now..I think that will make a difference. 

Things keep getting out of hand still 

Poor Windy..!!!!

I feel bad for Quarrel too 

~~Even though a lot of issues seem to~~

That's not a good way to think about this I think

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Hopefully 

The summer festival will -

I really hope that goes well!

Maybe we will see even more faces we haven't seen in a while...!

I wasn't expecting to see Lowe again! _{Then again uhm I guess I usually don't see him for all that long}

I guess I should keep focusing on preparing... I_m ready for a first batch now but I actually need more seaweed than I realized 

I really hope I can make things to help unm raises critters spirits a bit. I've already got ideas for Eyes and Azar... I'm not the best at planning thought- it's always seems better to give right when someone needs it than hold out for the 'right' moment I think 

_{If that makes eense}

Oh my gosh I Almost forgot about Clementine and Thorn!!! Wow!! That's some good news at least!! 

I probably should be making better notes about new arrivals hm

Well Velvets not exactly new, but I did meet them! Ah.. they seem really nice! I think it will be best to go through them for what I'm planning... I won't forget to bring things to the other tailors when I can though..! Especially Tansy... she needs more feathers than anything so that wont  be an issue. Maybe some of those other other plans will have to be on hold for a while

Right - New critters!

Who else have I met...

Owen- ah, it's been a while since I met Owen and Triss! They seem like good friends

And~~ Lauranet~~ Laurent and his husband Elderwish.. wryen it'll be really good to have another doctor and forest maker

my brain is stalling

I have met a few others... Melu.. ah it'll come back to me.. Elyenne uhm- will bring it back when I need it. 

One step at a time.. we can only doso much  what we can do!! I'll just.. do my best! 

I met a nice otter farmer named Pops tonight!! He's going to be Tansy's neighbor, I think- that makes me really happy to think about. I kind of would have liked to shown him other spots too just in case but I think this does work out better. Because when he meets Tansy I see exactly what I meant.. all part of my master plan hehe.... 

Ah but seriously I do hope I find more Cerridwen patrons who may take up the offer.... 

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I guess those candles aren't getting made for a while. 

I'm glad I decided to head to Sessha's to cook some more. 

Just have to take things as the come... But this ugh

Can we have once nice day???

One???

...I won't ask for that

Hm.

^{I guess I won't stick my nose into Kevin's mess too muchyet.  I've heard conflicting things already.  ..I do still want to talk to  Azar too.} 

It is kind of... _Dwindling some hope I had in the commerce Guild. I don't know. It's still not ready yet so I guess we'll see. 

~~Maybe I shouldn't have meddled with that fox either~~ No- what kind of critter would I be if I left even one critter alone with him??

How do you get blasted by Molly and still have the audacity to... Ugh!!!

Good at keeping critters in line.. keep yourself!!! 

Well I'm glad Molly stepped in to begin with. He was reminding me a bit of Dusk- definitely the last thing we need around here. 

_{...maybe I'm not getting full picture here but.. I think I've seen enough.} 

I know Quarrels biased against Pith but... Someone like that- it's the intent. Waltzing in.. expecting 'forgiveness'. Demanding it even.

I think that's how Pith is most different from someone.. like that. I don't think she's.. completely let go of expectations. And maybe that's not possible. But enough to accept and forge a new path .

If they see it, theyll see it. And if they don't.. she just has to learn to live with that. There's nothing a talk can do to explain that.

...I guess there's a lot I don't know about Pith. I know she did... Bad things. I know she felt pushed to do it. But even still. After all she's been though especially- I can extend some basic decency. Maybe.. not much more than that. But I hope it's enough. 

_{...ah I haven't written since Gin's birthday...?} 

Note to self... Make.. a list!! I was trying to figure out a few other critters but 

I guess I'm not the only one who doesn't know, for sure. 

Eyes and some other critter were both in summer though- I want to check in on that soon...

I definitely want to keep Kitami in mind though. She was so sad- the saddest ever. I don't understand who banned her from the island or why but... I do want to make something special for her. Show her she really is appreciated!!

I thought it'd be enough to send another letter... bring more care packages...

But he really truly was in a bad way. Thank Velyra Firefly brought this to my attention or else... I don't like to think about what would have happened.

...I'm glad all sorts of critters came together for a change. But... I'm still nervous about...

There will definitely be consequences to this. 

And if he's living where I think he is... Urk.. maybe I'll be okay.. or.. I can make some more suggestions when he feels up to it.

..I'm going to keep looking for spots anyway... I hadn't been doing that as much since Dusk left. Finding places to hide.. shortcuts.. well... longer but more hidden cuts- they might be important.

Other than that.. cooking- for sure cooking! I'll need to be considerate of how often I can get someone to pestle for me- and even more so when I want to do recioes with milk. 

^{(Sorry Sessha.. my 'stockpiling' usually barely lasts a day, heh...)}

Any other news... Hm...

AH- Clementine was looking.. rounder..! ..maybe more mash and  porridge will be on my to do list soon. 

And Cher and Bantam... Wow...! 

Okay well.

I'll just keep doing... My best! 

Hang in there every critter...!

after Velarious was left I thought we had some breathing room on our troubles...

But then the trial.. urk

It did go similar to how I thought it might go.. only a little close to how I hoped. T.he letter though. Oh stars.

What are we going to do???

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Oh goodness... Somehow I woke up on the island!! I can't believe all that happened and then.. this!!

Well... It did give me some space to clear my head some at least. And I even found lots of scrounge for cooking!! Yay!! It was so nice and cozy with Clara and Sessha and Basalt... And Web...

I guess it's best to focus on the positives.. maybe time away really will be the best for them to find connection with the gods. 

And.. I..it's probably far enough away to not have to involved with whatever happens with.. Soma's... Not ghost..? 

I still don't understand... I saw him die- they buried him- right??? How could they have not buried at them .. 

I know Meshi is.. convinced there's nothing wrong here but. I just can't shake this unsettling feeling. ..I really, really

want to know Quarrels thoughts on it... If I'd had enough for courier paper. I would have spent it all then and there. But I guess that might not be necessary now.

Elyenne guide us all.

Spoilers about Harris' Recent Activities across the Bridge.... Jyra-Tul, look away please!

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...Morothi granted me the cunning to cover my tracks... Perhaps selfishly I am glad not to be sent out there myself.  But.. what use is it if they're- If *He's* still out there?

<sub>..would the gods really.. disapprove of my action here? Maybe.. maybe Dharasi. And Velyra.  Velyra would not approve of all.. the lying. 

...if they'd asked me to swear on her name... I wouldn't have been able to do it.</sub> 

But... 

Velyra.. she's.. she's also the the goddess of friendship.. of shelter... She must know my heart. 

And all of this.. it's.. 

It's all been for Eyes. 

Kerowyn's my friend too.. but she at least would be able to find easily find sowthistles with her magic.  And Ginerva... _{Admittedly... If it wasn't for Eyes...}

Maybe she should be out there. Alone. Alone untill she finds peace with the gods. 

But Eyes...

w..we've all failed him... he and Quarrel and Chisel and Marrow... they've all been suffering...!! suffering for so long!! the vampyre has taken and taken and taken so much... h..he's sick. He.. can't even stomach... he needs... food!

Knowingly allowing a critter to starve... Is a great evil. I won't allow this.

He is.. 'self-exiled'.. that isn't authorized by a priest. His crimes aren't against the Pantheon, but himself... 

The gods... _{at least some of them} must.. understand my intention. ..They would send some sign of disfavor if I have slighted them. 

.....

the only maybe 'signs' I can think of are.. if Quarrel and Molly were the sign.

 _{..the sign to stop...} 

But.. surely I would have been exiled myself if.. if the dragons willed that? 

..I don't think I have their full approval either...  

My meddling.. it only made conditions harder for them.. their entire stock of rations- even the piles I had no part in... Confiscated ...was that a sign? 

Maybe... Jyra-Tul is still watching to see what I do next.  

..is my work not yet done...? Or.. have I extended Cerridwen and Velyra's kindness as far as it can reach....?

I pray it was enough for Ginevra to understand there is a place for her here.. if she's willing to change

maybe my actions.. have simply been beneath their notice entirely.  It's foolish for any one critter to claim to fully understand the god's intentions. 

Azar.. that idiot!! Storms are when Althas is angery!! Not a little rain! Even I know that

It's not his fault...

It's not anyone's fault.. but..

Velarious.

I don't want to speak his name.. I cna't give him that power.  

..I have more writing to do... but I best rest for now.