Been a quiet few days, mostly. 

Chisel chased a few folks around, but no my best knowledge, no one else was harmed. I am unsure of how she's treating Dove though. 

When I made my first cookies, I thought of potentially leading her on another chase so Dove wouldn't have to deal for her a while- but I wasn't quick enough. ..not that she'd necessarily have fallen for that to beging with, mind you... She'd already brought Uso to transcribe something and paid for it. 

I'm happier to have offered to them to the folks I went scrounging with anyway- well, unfortunately not Silk, they were a later addition. Sessha's been so nice. Its always good to see them. 

And ah!! I'm just glad they turned out so well!!

 Its been my plan for a few days to have brought all my scrounge and ask for some lessons. So I'm glad I finally caught her. Urk but she said she had a concussion..! From Chisel...? Its hard to tell. She is always so cheerful. Even when Chisel was literally in her shop!!

I've been seeing Mirelurch around more lately. She actually cursed David... He did spit on her after multiple warnings to leave her alone. <.<' but still. Their curses are so powerful and David kind of needs all the help he can get. I really hate to see someone suffer a curse. She wanted a Luna for an apology. I think she thought I'd offer for him (and honestly I was considering it before he wandered off again...) ..but even if I did, I don't think I'd want to make the offer in front of her. She can't just see me as someone to shake coins out of... I..I mean- ...not that she does. Or would but... Ahhghh this is pointless anyway- what am I saying?? Why would I pay her when she can't even cute the curse? Stupid stupid 

I wish I could tell if her corncern was genuine or not. ~~Does she know what she was asking me? Three logs??  ..I find maybe one log on a good week! She does not understand the rates of trade at all..!~~ Urk. Noo I'm. I shouldn't jump to.. ill conclusions.

_{I definitely could be doing better... but it's not for lack of trying.}

Mireluch did meet with me in the temple... That had to mean something, right? I wonder if she knows that folk song at the academy.

That's Rodensi.  <.<; 

o mygoshthiswholetime I thought  I was learning the mouse language!! Dear gods this is so embarrassing... Rodensi.. R. Rat. Murian. M. Mouse. Dove said she mixed them up too, so that makes me feel a little better... Ah but no wonder Oriane would always cringe when I tried to speak it..! I thought I'd learn it to help talk with her... But she probably had to learn more just to understand me..! AHHHH

I guess the other big thing that happened was. Hallstone  knocked Dusk comatose. Urk. That guy gave no indication he'd be going on  .. a crusade..! This is horrible...

We have only heard Dusk and Uso's side of events which. I am taking with a heavy grain of salt. But still. This is the last thing I would have wanted. Violence should really only be used for self defense.. that's how I feel about it. Its how I've always felt about it . I don't . Completely fault critters who think differently. But I don't see that changing for myself.

Ive really got to get better at lying about what happened.  Urk.. I'm just not good at it. I already told a secret to someone I probably shouldn't have.. Some critters will just mind their own business but more often than not they immediately want to know what happens or  if I'm okay.... what am I supposed to say to that?! I can't just take it off... folks are liable to think it's been stolen (and plus it's cold!!!!) Maybe it's a good thing I haven't seen Tansy yet.  I should re-dye  it. I think I could do maybe a red? or a copper.. maybe brown.. but even that makes me sad. Hemlock gave me the dye for it originally... So light a color is just doomed on me though.

wha t. A. Night.

How did I even manage to get into that situation...?

Ghhhh

Well. That definitely could have gone better. 

And it Definitely. Definitely could have gone a lot worse.

I really should have talked to Song earlier... Seems our meetings have been precious and few between though. I see them and I'm too happy to think about all this...stuff!

Good heavens was it bad they... They talked to Sasha about that. I know I never would have.... Song's.. maybe even worse with certain cues than I am though. 

Its not that Uso deserves guilt free interactions with him... No, he hardly deserves Sasha at all. But that doesn't matter. Sasha's a kid... He deserves to just be a kid, you know? 

I wasn't there. I really can't.. mediate whatever was said all the time. I really really hope Song is more careful after this... I know I'm going to be.  _{h ahahahahahahahaha}

No money involved huh? Just for Kicks I guess. Ugh.

_{I can't decide of that's better or worse}

Scrounge was actually not to bad today! albeit ah.mm was too hungry to pick much it up.

Wanted to ask Rosa about some yellow magic.. but if I did that in front of Quarrel.. after THAT conversation 

^{well I think I'd die even if they didn't shank me} 

Was that preferable to going to Windy's to running into.. all that..?? I don't know.

Actually I don't even k now if my soup turned out. Maybe not if Windy didn't announce it. Er but maybe she did? There was.. too much going on to concentrate on that.

Okay. So. No you know what I'm not unpacking this tonight 

On the bright side!! I did get to see Song! The circumstances sucked but Oh also I taught Sessha a bit of climbing!! 

No okay I do have to mention Taronja. Goodness gracious... Another critter with need

She's safe.. oh thank all the gods she's safe

Ughhhhh

How does this keep happening? HOW does this keep happening?????

I'm sorry Taronja... Viva, if you were around. I would have loved to take you scrounging today.

But of course THIS happens instead!!!!!

Stupid stupid stupid 

good gods I hate this

they know exactly what they're doing

you want to see how much I get done *silenced*? Ha. 

Well you're gonna see. 

_{To bad that crystal didn't break. I guess I should have known better than to get my hopes up.} 

The worst part is everything they wanted to do I probably would have done if they'd just ASKED. Ugh. Stupid. Maddening. 

I guess I am curious how strong some of the other mages have gotten. I don't doubt Eyes could make a serious effort to cure this given the right crystal.   Whatever was used on me was beyond Kitami though.

Urk. 

_{... I guess I'm not actually sure what level black magic Song uses. I know they managed to curse Silvana that one time so they were pretty proud of that}

Really hate making Anyone see me like this though. Its good to know there are still critters I can trust. But. Gh. I already owe so much

Really there isn't any reason not to do hauling. I've seen who gets drakes and the only reason windy got one was because they didn't have smaller change 

No don't end it like this

I can count my blessings 

Lumi, who was thankfully understanding of my ritual. And truly I am happy to help. The academy has been a great place.. a safe place.. for me and just about everyone. I will always support what it should be.

The kindness my friends and strangers alike. I think Wormwood is someone I'd like to know better. Elysia. Fabula. (Well Fabula was already my friend but still)  You don't always knoe everything about your friends! 

It really was so funny when Riley said almost exactly what I was thinking. Eyes did sound almost just like Quarrel that time! 

This isn't going to be forever. It might.. feel like it, but it won't. 

Okay.. My debt is cleared. ..I think that's a good thing.

Mireluch's been so cordial it's... Well I'd almost forget her locking me in that room.

...I want to believe her concerns are genuine. But if she's trying to get me to trust her again I don't doubt she could guess that's what I'd want. Gh hate thinking like this. I've got to start thinking differently though. I've got no illusion I can outsmart Mirelurch but at least maybe be.. five steps ahead of me and not like twenty. Well. Whatever the case, I won't take things for granted. ACTUALLY try to keep my head down this time. But.. not completely let my guard down.

I really hope it wasn't important I told her Arachnis just healed me without 'pestering' them. Maybe she believed me when I said I misremembered. maybe... Urk. Hard not to be honest in the temple. ...well we weren't in front of Velyra's shrine at least.

I haven't seen Arachnis since xey healed me. That worries me a lot. I mean not because of what Uso said because he's probably lying but

I don't know. There's truth to lies sometimes.

I just hope xey're okay.


Things have been pretty calm otherwise actually. I've barely seen Dusk or Uso. ...No Song either though...  Lots of new squirrels!

Ah and I've been cooking better now!!! I saved up for another new pan! Its been so great!

Oh that was so fun! Like a little sleepover almost!! 

Almost

Oh beans I forgot about Uso's new sword. Urk. Song even helped him pay for it. I wouldn't have done it, but I follows their lead and gave one of those little silver coins. 

Peh that whole shopping trip was more trouble than it was worth. Didn't have sail flour. Didn't have seaweed. Ack- remebwr those are with...a white or two she said? Urk now I have to go back to check the sunberry price. Whatever! Changes are she won't be in again by then. 

Poor Song... Fell in the river!!! Oh that was a fright.. they seemed okay enough after drying off and lighting that fire but. Oh dear. So many critters have been getting sick

 Arachnis really enjoys the fire too- I mean- everyone does. I'm glad it was lit for so many critters to enjoy! ~~Even if one of them was Uso~~

Silvanus blessings definitely about though! I ran into Tansy and gave her the tangles I was saving for her! She said she made the bags for me and Karjok with no problem! Its actually a bit heavy for me ... I think I'll use it more for organizing things than carrying it around all the time

But I'm not sure what I'll put in it yet! Maybe more tangle blossom? Or nuts? Its still white so probably better to out something that won't stain. Probably need to brush Songs fur off if it still actually 

Oh right! Back to the first thing.. wow! I made so many soups..! Er (except the five I knocked over ;A; !!!!) I definitely got a bit dozy by the end, so im excited to hear back from those two how they turned out. All of my salads were perfect! I'm really getting the hang of it!!!!